In the last month or so....things have really taken a turn for the worse. I'm gonna skip the "oh , PLEASE feel bad for me!!!" part and just vent.

First off, my school is one of 2 major deaf/hard-of-hearing schools in the USA. There's Gallaudet and RIT/NDIT, where I go. The population breaks down like this, more or less: roughly 18,000 undergrads, maybe 10-20% deaf. It's an INSANELY diverse campus with a hebrew temple, mosque and bhuddist/hindu prayer center as well as the steeple. There's literally as many people on campus from Malaysia as there is deaf people. Literally. Anyway, you'd think any supremacists would attack the vast amount of "colored" people on campus, right? (Let's be honest, it's 50-50 caucasian-minorities, so this is NOT the place for a white supremacist). Wrong. Turns out, some computer programming majors (this IS primarily a tech/science school with a well-renowned art program (hell, Kodak was founded on campus as well as Johnson-Johnson and (George) Eastman and Bausch-Lomb)) created an FML site (like fmylife . com) for our campus and you need a campus ID to sign in and yadda yadda. It had MAJOR hype on facebook and everything. Well, I signed up for it about 3 days after it was created and was immediately APPALLED at it. Basically, the topics include, by VAST MAJORITY: "oh crap i f**ed up in COD, Halo, ect", "Why cant i find a girl with the 7-3 ratio????", "I drank __ bc i couldnt find beer, and then my roommate said he had beer and now I hope my obituary is funny", and really old/unintentionally-racist/pornographic professors. Thats 95% of all of them. Oh. Wait. One last thing. 50% of that 95% is complaints about the deaf population. Not even vague or implicit. Stuff like: (and in some cases its the comments, not the FML's btw...)

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And the absolute WORST offender (thus far) makes it WORSE because I know for a FACT that this happened on our floor (because were the morons sans microwave):
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However, out of maybe 3 dozen pages, there's been 3 that have made me lol:
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1st place: [link] (read the comment on this one)

On saturday night, I was given some bad news....my best friend on campus....the first time I've a singular best friend in person since 5th grade.....is transferring back home to go to school since her VR support is fucking her over. Oh, yeah -- she lives in california. Fucking california. So, the odds are very very very good that after we take her to the airport during christmas break, thats it -- no more kristy for a very very long time, if not for a few years. Imagine your very best friend comes up to you -- "Hey, I'm leaving in 2 weeks -- I can't afford to live here anymore. I have no choice". Most of the time, you get a month or so's warning. I got 2 weeks. Fuck.

Then, last night, I was coming back from dinner, via the tunnel system in the basement (theres a tunnel system that connects 2 dining halls, one academic building, and all the dorms, one for the science/engineering/student union/gym/library/eastman buildings, and a few others that ive yet to explore) and I've had a bad fear of elevators since I was about 13 and got stuck in one. Since I live on the 6th floor, I realized id have to do a lot of elevator especially coming back from shopping of any sort. So I started to get used to it until last night. It was going up, from A to 6 and at the 3rd floor started getting a little shaky. At the 5th floor it dropped 4 floors to the 1st floor and then climbed up to the 2nd floor before randomly opening its doors. Obviously I got out, and I didn't stop shaking for an hour...I nearly died....one floor away from *splat*....Im done with elevators forever. Period. Allllll on my ankle (more later) (I've been caught in an escalator too, when I was in 6th grade -- my shoelaces then my pants proceeded to get eaten up by the down elevator at the bottom -- but they're obviously a lot safer considering I don;t think they present an immediate risk of death....<.< )

I also got a notice 2 weeks ago. Because I didn't take out some random loan, I'll be paying an extra $4000 a year. Wow. Wtf? That nearly cancels out one of my scholarships. Apparently that loan was part of my financial aid package and since I never took out the loan (I'm paying this year directly from my own pocket) assuming I could pay for it, I now owe $4000 more. Ugh. But wait, theres more messes....

....I got screwed out of 3 4 credit class grades: Calculus, chemistry and cell biology. In calc -- I had the top grade: 99.9. Since I was so close to breaking the curve and 30% or something had grades below passing, she instituted a massive jump in the worth of homework -- went from like 4 points of 110 to nearly 20. Since I have other worries than a class which I know the material backwards and forwards, the times that I DIDN'T do the homework turned out to be the days that she DID collect homework (she did so randomly). So, my grade dropped to a 89.992. In chem, I got a 93.89 on the exam, which gave me a 89.772. On cell bio, I got a 79.876. All 3 of these grades should be logically rounded up, no? Nope. Turns out none of them did. Had I gotten 2 A's and a B instead of 2 B's and a C, I would have a 3.7 to start off my year. And because of this....I'm starting with a 2.9. A fucking 2.9. I need to average 3,6 on the year to stay in honors, and 3.2 for all my scholarships. The 3.2 is easy enough, I'd have to average 3.5 in this and the next quarter to keep it...it's doable. But I'm fucked on honors. Because of this shit, I need to average a 3.95. Currently, I'm in 2 advanced chemistries (one of which, the lab -- if any results are wrong or inaccurate, you HAVE to repeat the experiment. This usually ends up with me doing it in triplicate and some people ending up doing it 4 or 5 times. I've yet to see ANYONE get any of them right the first try). SO, thats gonna be a HUGE effort on my part, and is most of the reason I havent done much on here (sorry!) or even replied to faves yet....

....and because of this mess, the lab that accepted me has me on 4-week academic probation. See, 99% of the labs DONT take freshmen. But I "auditioned" for a biochemistry lab a few weeks ago (a 5-week process) and after an interview made it. Out of a pool of 4 grad students, 2 3rd years, 3 2nd years and 5 freshmen, me, one other freshman, and 2 grad students made it....and the other freshman has a lot of lab experience. Basically, without any real lab experience, I beat out 2 grad students and 8 undergrads. Wow. Anyway, I need to bring those 3 grades up (well, 4 now -- Major's chem II, quantitative chemical analysis, calc 2 and molecular biology (dude...the lab....we're learning how to make just about anything glow green. Basically, she's teaching us how to genetically modify/create glow-in-the-dark organisms....I've decided (random tangent here) that I'm going to do a green-glowing pig....and claim it was bitten by the same radioactive spider and spiderman.....and name him SPIDERPIG!!!!!! Anyway, I have a meeting in January and were gonna discuss my grades and (god willing) if I'm not screwed over again, I'll be fine.

My ankle's busted again. Went ice skating. Screwed it up after using in the wrong way for 2 hours. Not fun. Going to the doc's this weekend. (and yes the same one from the previous 2 times involving track). And as a result, I can't run anymore, not til the doc says its ok. I can already feel myself getting fat.....

I broke up with Ashley....mainly because it was getting to the point where I couldnt see her anymore....she was too busy....and when she wasnt busy she didnt want to hang (like, during thanksgiving, I had 10 days off and we did NOTHING at ALL). So....yeah.

Some kid made a massive MAAAAASSIVE mess (like someone who went to PF Changs and Taco Bell 3 times each in one night) in both the shower and toilet. And even AFTER ME AND MY RA EACHHHHHHH called the janitor, not a single person has shown up to do SHIT to the SHIT. I havent showered since sunday bc of it and I have to go down 6 stories and across the quad to one of the dining halls to go to the bathroom. Fun, especially with my ankle.

My hearing aids are on the fritz too....a lot of static....background but annoying as fuck,.......

Q: So, is there ANY positive news?
A: Why yes, there is!

◊ Assuming my grades go good, I'm officially a research biochemist....one semester into college. Not like, washing plates and glassware, but actually doing experiments. I'm part of a research team working on a vaccine for ear infections (and the clinical trials come after, during which I will get to follow and shadow the doctors and everything and im sooooooooooo fucking excited!!!!!!!)

◊ I brought a bunch of new books after selling 3 textbooks for about $175 haha. I was reading one of 3 math books (one on Fermat;s Last Theorem, one on Euler's work, and a compilation of calculus-related theories and their explanations) and my loathing calc prof told me to put it down...until she saw the book (the Fermat one) and practically puked squee and *get this* told me to KEEP READING. Wow. FTW.

◊ For some reason....calculus just got insanely easy. As in....even the shit that I MAJORLY bombed in AP last year. Like related rates. We're doing related rates right now. In AP I dont think I EVER got a single one right, hell I didnt understand SHIT about them. (The only I reason I got the 35% I did was because of partial credits). But.....here.....its the SAME problems (and some new ones) and....I can do 90% of them in my head. Even the tougher ones....like.....she gaves us one where the water was flowing out of an inverted cone and water was being filled back into it and you had to find that rate of flow back in or something and this was one Donovan had put on our test, and i didnt understand shit about it....and I did it for her in about 30 seconds....and got it right.....o_O....the labs too, are simply a dozen or so related rates problems and I've gotten all 3 on them 100% so far....and done in 15 minutes on 40-50 minute labs..........